So as my Dad was going through all of this I was going through my own teenage girl problem. Well not really problems but I was growing up really fast. So when I was 15 I met this boy he was older than me,he was about 20 years old and we started hanging out and I thought we were friends. I guess this friendship was not mutual as he had other ideas. He text me ” I have a new game want to come check it out” I was like alright. So I went and we played the game, and then all of a sudden he started touching me inappropriately I tried to fight him off but I am only small and he is a pretty big boy. I screamed but noone could hear me. In my head I was just praying lord save and I couldn’t believe how stupid and naive I had been. I felt ashamed,helpless and scared.
After all was done I felt so dirty I couldn’t even tell anyone the 1st time I actually told someone was when I was 18 I told my cousin. I couldn’t believe I had lost my virginity in such a disgusting and terrible way. I felt revolting and couldn’t even look at myself in the mirror. I also let myself go wouldn’t dress nice or look after myself. I guess I was depressed for a while.
It was hard but I had to tell someone in order for me to heal. I then had to build up my confidence again,and finally began to trust men. I went through many relationships as I had to learn to trust…….
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